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April 11 动了心…却已远离看不到就会忘掉。我始终相信自己,疗伤能力一流,什么都记不久,我以前默默注视你,现在默默忘掉你,也许得不到会更想要,但是我也知道得到更糟糕。我现在再怎么把你放在心上,过不了一星期,准把你给解决掉。我喜欢你,我更珍惜自己,你那么冷漠,我又何苦作践自己。再多的迷恋也抵不过时间的冲洗。 本来写这篇东西是为了纪念你,但是到这里我都已经觉得不值得。但还是留下来,因为,那么久了,你让我有了想恋爱的感觉。 你个子不高,172,够了,我170,不穿高跟鞋,跟你并肩走在一起,转头就可以平视。这种感觉,在心底体会了多少遍。 你腿很短,但是肩很宽。坐在你左边,挽着你的手臂,把头靠在你肩上,那个温馨的镜头,在我心里上演了多少遍。 你很丑,又很肥,但是很亲切,所以,喂你吃饭,把你养的更肥,更丑,更没人要是我转了多少念想要做的事。 其实这些东西写出来,再想想你丑陋的脸,啥都不美了,我对你的迷恋已消去大半。我知道你有想法,有能力,对人好,所有人都喜欢你,老板赏识你,但是今天看你那拽的样子,我觉得我没必要苦哈哈的暗恋你。离你这么远了,心很快就会平静了。 希望窗外的闪电劈中你,哈哈。 许杨,你是挺不错的。但是为了我好,你还是去死吧。 我改天学说相声,然后去找个米帅 February 08 我不喜欢我自己呀你不会知道我是怎么想的,因为我什么也没想。 不习惯太亲近,想找个人倾诉,会让人吓到 白羊真的吃软不吃硬 我真的是闷骚型啊。我到是想光芒万丈,但怎偏就生一副兔子心胆。 我很在意出风头的事,问题是没大脑只能出洋相。我只能低调吗,似乎是唯一选择。 November 09 it's lowhow low to feel. only in this occassion,luigi comes back to mind. i appreciate everything about luigi.it's lucky to know him.every memory about him is special tract as way to refeel ,the time spend with him is precious gift for life. it's so bad to feel low,the only thing about luigi is the thought he gose out with other girls.the feel that he's not mine is so strong that i can't feel the happyness of having him before. today is the first day working as a receptionist,not in high spirit,so scenes about luigi with his beloved is only thing in my mind.how pathetic. i have things to tackle,no time for entertainment.prepare for the next three exams,online only for emails.the diploma is more important than anything else..so get focused,instead of upset about nothing. November 01 可以想着你就知足了真的够了,我不需要太多,有那么些记忆,足够我慢慢回味。 在公车上,靠着软椅,厚实的椅垫温暖身体,行驶的摇晃松弛神经,就喜欢这样,希望永远到不了我的站点,就这么放松,可以出神,可以想你。在公车上,什么也不需要做,什么也做不了;也许到站有太多事情要忙,但这之前,就让我摇摇晃晃,做做梦,听听歌,发着呆,装着愣,窗外城市游历于思想之外,如果没有终点,我也不再为生活奔波,这车开向永恒,我也顺便看看,有多少景色重合。如果不现实,我非得在那一站下车不可,那请多堵会儿车。从城市的这头到那头,当我不得不下车,离开温软的坐椅,撑开伞,走进泥水横流的街道,满带泥点的走向目的地,我回到生活,重入现实,公车的逃离到此为止,期待下一次长距离的灵魂逃逸。 你是我最近公车梦的主角,我不停想着你,我喜欢想着你,我也不知想些什么,就念着你的名字,精神飘荡着,哪一刻出了神,忘了想你,我都像被逮到上课不认真听讲的小孩一样觉得尴尬,我的思维太散了,飘着飘着,就抓不住了。我努力控制他,告诉他,要集中呀,你想就这么把他忘了吗?luigi的眼睛那么漂亮,他对待你那么温柔,不论你说什么,他总是那么配合,即使违着心,他也有礼貌的说着甜蜜的话,没能留住他,好可惜呀,你太笨了,他是要求那么低的人,这样你都满足不了,你是注定没人要了。 n' de' tute a dar' ja el cul你说的哪国话呀? October 28 it's nice to see you ....online (tuesday)just now i loged in with my never invisible id,and i saw luigi was online,i loged out immidiately.when i used my you can't see me id to watch him..his id already turned grey. that's not a good sign,but now,he is back,there is a line under his name:rob 20 lecce italy bitch(later he enfaced it )...他被抢了20块钱?impossible.what's wrong with the lecce..he misses home?and who is the bitch? to watch him come and go,hope tonight he will stay longer,noooo i start to worry now,who is he talking with,for so long.he gets a new girl?finally he left,how many hours has he chatted with her?about two hours? October 27 我有自己的房子了今天去看了两处房,亚太商谷和诺丁阳光。看亚太商谷的时候就想马上下定金了,位置不错,南坪商务中心,升值空间大,离walmart也近,承诺精装交房,送家电组合,有液晶电视,空调,冰箱,洗衣机。看了样板房,满满说再看看,我却急着想定下来,当时似乎只有那一套小户,过期也没家电送了。给爸爸打了电话,得到首肯,都决定去取钱了,走着走着,我又问首付少月供低的是不是便宜?满满说当然了,问在哪,我说在沙坪坝,那要不要在看看,那走吧。于是杀去诺丁阳光,我心里一直嘀咕着,难道这就是命运?第一次见luigi就是在一个叫notting hill的酒吧门口。一直觉得中国人爱用外国名字,老不伦不类的,你这也不是诺丁山,没有julia roberts,nor hugh grant,哪来什么诺丁阳光?(乐山,歌乐山就本土多拉)走啊走,离沙坪坝还是有一个站的距离,又走过了和luigi一起去过的沙坪公园,我一直嘀咕啊,我的luigi啊,我们的缘分浅到只能让我这样想起你吗? 来说notting sun,交房是刷白了的,这是让我心动的首要原因,我一直以为清水房就是砖头都还看得到,我怕自己装修搞的很麻烦,要不怎么对亚太的精装修那么倾心,就是图它可以直接入住。notting的线啊管道都是铺好了的,那装修没那么麻烦,价格又低,离川外又近,交房时间比亚太还早几个月,庆幸没定亚太。吃完午饭,我又在想要不要去江北看看,那边房价还要低,江北发展潜力据说很大,这时满满似乎不想走了,于是给老爸一个电话,就去交定金了。。。我慨叹:我也有房了。 回到租的房子这边,心情却并不雀跃,我原以为是现房,可不得不等到明年八月,住至少还多一个月,每月按揭也是够我受的。 我不知道,我有了自己的房,爸爸是不是就撒手不管我了,我知道他的心理,如果他为我多操点心,我似乎还在他的羽翼下,他的责任感还重些。这样一来,以后怕是什么他都只给我一句:你自己看着办。如果他对我太放心了,认为什么都给我安排好了,他是不是就了无牵挂了,这样是轻松呢,还是空虚?我觉得他后面这些日子都是为了我。这就是独立的感觉吗,更孤立,我怕自己不主动联络的毛病会让自己离家人越来越远。 October 20 my hobby is eating pastait is said that there are 350 types of pasta,
so far i have only had fusilli,farfalle,spaghetti. seems that many types are not of big differences,the size can be ignored..since my life is short,money is shorter... the first time i ate pasta is the special afternoon at luigi's appartment,it's spaghetti,he cooked with bacon and egg,i put a lot pepper and cheese in it. pasta很有嚼劲,奶酪很香,pepper辣味也不错。美中不足的是,他嫌贵就没用橄榄油,那可以让面的味道更强一点,他用的是我们做菜的油,在他们那边都是用来炸东西的。这是我的第一次啊,让完美主义的我扼腕不已。 but it didn't prevent me from falling love with the cutest pasta,since then all the dreams are about eating it once more.the second time was fusilli,螺旋型的面身华丽多姿,放入嘴里更能体会发明者用意精妙之处,些许酱汁夹在缝中,软硬适中的口感,面对这新奇的触感,我的牙都兴奋了起来,咬下去,一下两下,探索着其形其状,劲道的面佐以浓香的肉酱在口中来回打转,舍不得吞,又迫不及待想吃下一口,好纠结啊。 什么时候才能吃到橄榄油做的意大利面呢?原本呢,打算乔迁新居以后自己做来吃,但想想我的厨艺,还是作罢。我要这橄榄油的第一次完美无暇,要毁也毁在意国人手上,话说回来在他们的手上又怎么可能毁呢! 超市的pasta呢我是坚决不能碰了(鉴于我伟大的理想是只吃意人做的意面,除非哪天我也变意人),那意面酱呢,我对他还是很有想法的,买来佐挂面吗?似乎不符合我完美主义要求啊,意面酱只能下意面啊。但是,如果我要吃意面的话,人家根本不会用那小儿科的玩意,都是自己做酱料啊,那我不是没机会吃了,嗯嗯嗯,其实既然人家不用,证明没什么了不起,下下挂面又怎么了。好,结论是可以买意面酱来过瘾,在没人为我做意大利面的时候。但是意面酱不配意面,会不会有损其风味呢。oh my god,should i try it once with pasta?who can give me an answer... October 12 i also hate the embarrassing silence我想改变自己。 我想改变自己的油性皮肤,那天你在洪崖洞故做柔情的抚摩我脸颊,尴尬的我,紧抓你的手远离我的脸……唉,soft cheeks只有我刚洗完脸的时候才感受得到,可一般那时候我是不敢见人的。 我想改变自己的沉闷性格,每次你在小厨房煮pasta的时候,我想装出叽喳小鸟样跟你聊天不得逞,只有抓着遥控器狂换台;每次我们坐在公车上我都只有装睡以避沉默尴尬,天呐。我这张嘴只是长来吃的吗? 我想改变自己的易肥体质,因为你说不喜欢不敢吃太多的姑娘(你的用词),其实在你面前我确实吃像狂放(你还是不喜欢我呀),那是因为我发现和你一起吃东西我体重不长反减,看不到你,我不管吃什么都长。 如果我皮肤好好,白白嫩嫩,能说会道,纤细身材,你还不喜欢我,那我就换叫撒 October 10 beautiful girl...i don't need to much talk i feel good when you aside. i love holding your hand, i feel peace. sorry for my silence, i know we have different feelings, it's full to have a little time with you.too much is hard for me. please let me know you are there,or where.it's just the very feeling i need, keep in touch is comforting me is it too much? i miss you. 25 miles from veronaso,if i can't meet you here,i'll go to the place 25 miles away from verona. we met one day before your parents' marriage ceremony.i was wondering are they a happy couple.you always seem blue,quite ,far different from the happy italian i know. you are lion;you have a brother and a sister,you are the youngest in the family,i don't see the reason why you are introversion if not for the family.maybe i am wrong,maybe you are more open with friends,with a girl you love,but not with me.i have a photo of you,in which you lift a mobile,i saw sparkle in your eyes.who took that one for you?..and some other pictures in your laptop,you look like a wild lazy lion,that's the real you.right?there is also controdiction,you talk about your friend andrea like a non-stop speaker,which makes it easy for you,you just say yeah,oh. so,you are not talktive,but inside you are not unhappy,we should find some topic you like. you don't miss home but your neifew and pasta.neifew brings you happyness,and children are easy to get along with,you are still a child too,simple and kind.you would never hurt anyone ,politely saying:oh,it's nice time i spent with you.you try to endure everything,but i can see you impacience.you indulge everyone,where ends you passion. your father and brother are little fat,you saw yourself in them,because you don't like any sports,but maybe walking will save you..you walk a lot. yes it's all about you.i don't know too much of you,i try to keep every little piece there in mind,you mean a lot too me. this morning i tried to send your sms,because i still want to have your album,but my left money isn't enough.if there is something trying to keep me away from you,why didn't it appear earlier.i miss you. October 09 一切因luigiluigi你好伟大呀,我要因你改变。
我对生活不热心,脑袋空空荡荡,对一切都是茫然,从今天起我要坚持写blog了,写生活,培养爱好,找自己感兴趣的事。为了找话题,为在以后和“你”相处中没有沉默。我希望能让你看到我的改变,在事情变的太迟以前。我只期望你说的保持联系不是空话一句,没事也短信给我吧,或者在msn上打个招呼。
dose the colour of your eyes make you different from others? is it blue or gray?maybe both.i saw also green in the picture you put in badoo.you told me your eyes change colour with the lights..that sounds amazing.you have black hair which was blonde before you were 1.i thought the people with light eyescolors should have blonde hairs.you offered me different facts..once there was an italian who is a total blonde,i asked if he was from north europe,because italian are darker .he laughed and said that his father had the same doubt.humorist no?
you like rock,but i listened linking park only,which you are not fond of.
you like walk aimlessly,which i don't understand,because you told me you are lazy.i guess i've get used to the understand--to--accept function,there are too many whys in mind .i try to experience it to myself,thinking about how i walk ,where to go,any thoughts apear.but the truth is it works that way, there is no need to understand nor accept.it's useless,just different type of life,he walks i don't .i should not care too much.
you don't take photoes at travel,you prefer people act natural,but you hate to take pictures without notice them,which would make them not natural.you have theoris.but what about landscapes,why till today this question pumped out?anyway,it's a pity.
your nick name comes from transporting,and you mentioned twice about bruse brother,these two will be the type i'm going to check.i like kungfu panda we watched together.
i thought you are the perfect guy for me,we are both quite(which now becomes the reason you don't wanna see me again,two is too many,so i decide i'll be the one who make more noise),you are gentle,cautious as me,think too much for others.(you would be sorry even for just one little joke when i was in worry,which i din't mind)in one word,we are much alike.i can accpet that,but you don't.so there are more you want.something crazy,something funnier..i'm trying to figure it out.and i will. October 08 looks captures the eyes, but personality captures the heart我觉得好难受。luigi说我们以后不要再见面了,我们毫无共同之处,无话可说,无事可做。我以为我从没重视过他,一切只是为了满足自己的虚荣心,因为他眼睛的颜色,我才接受他。谁知当他说出这话后,眼泪却止不住的流。丢了工作,也丢了他。我觉得自己很倒霉。
认识他倒霉,没有哪件事顺利。我却觉得幸运。我收藏了他的每一条短信,似乎就是等到今天来回味。
第一次见面后,他再也没联系我,我难过了一个下午。可过了一个月,他又给了我个意外。我完全没有自尊心,任他摆布,他说对不起,我表现糟糕。我说,没关系。一切都好吗。
最后一次见面,昨天10月7号。之前还做了美梦,梦见他短信给我,说我是他流浪那么久停留的地方。
在洪崖洞那次,问他语言课程什么时候结束,他给的答案是明年年初,问他之后呢,他说到时再看。我想原来你给我的时间这么短暂,我们之间只能是萍水相逢了。我更坚定了你玩我 ,我也玩你的信念。其实我说不上玩,总觉得自己很勉强,到今晚才发现,他也不是仅仅热衷于那一件事的。这让他显得更加可爱,而我更懊恼。
从去年夏天认识他,中间断断续续见过几次面,每次都只为了一个目的。奥运会后他开始在这边上学了,几乎每周见面,有时候觉得累。因为都是不善言谈的人,就像他说的,我们在一起除了性没别的事可做。好悲哀呀。
也许还会留恋很久--期待下班后那条问候短信的感觉。
也许会一直惦记着去川外,去考试,好巧不巧的遇到他。
也许喜欢pasta却再也不敢吃。
很想知道他现在在干什么,
我好想他。
头一次觉得自己要疯了。我现在什么都没有,我不知怎样才可以变的更好。
August 05 this is upsetthe movie is miss comception,
she is strongminded,while presumed her guy is hooking up with another girl.she is well working on her scheduals to get pregnant,it looks like that she dosen't care too much about his betray.but after the turth is uncovered,they say sweet love again and again.you never know they love each other that way.because she acts so cool.
爱情,孩子的父亲不是单项选择题,被背叛还是要面对只有四天时间做妈妈的现实,以前再怎样柔情似水,现在也要把精力放在其他男人的下半身上,当不得不做选择时,能对自己说的只有:也许真的爱过,但是我不得不去找别的男人给我所想要的了 June 06 dopo a ingles o espanolpaolo一个多星期没回复了,要么是发现了事情的真相,要么就是没兴趣了。
我是一个不易后悔的人,即便作了孽,也会从作孽的原因后果分析,这孽注定了,事情如果没经我胡搅,也不会有更好的结果。
即使没有死亡的谎言,我们的通信能维持多久呢,等到下一次他玩消失吗?感情啊,感觉啊都是转瞬即逝的。我需要他比他需要我多,他是无法掌控的,我也不愿患得患失。就这样结束也好,在他意尤未尽的时候,留更多的想念。
其二,如果无足轻重,我更该早早结束。因为……所以……
我心中的涟漪只是他随口的引诱课程,每日笑话中的一个。像他那样的笑话大师,我还是早早退场,免得涟漪被激怒成海啸 September 09 para mi abuelaRecomendaciones para el adulto mayor Investigaciones han demostrado que en cuanto a la expectativa de vida es importante cuidar tu cuerpo y mente, por lo que debes tener en cuenta lo siguiente: September 08 algo que tiene la razón,pero no entiendo bienPara una vida más positiva Es verdad cuando se dice que se recibe lo que se merece, en la mayoría de los casos, se recibe el mismo tratamiento. Cambia el enfoque de ti hacia los otros y deja que el espíritu que da sea la razón de tu punto de vista mejorado del mundo. September 07 tengo nada que ver con estoLa raíz de los celos. Los celos son un sentimiento de incomodidad y tiene sus raíces en la inseguridad. Ya sea que haya o no una causa para los celos su presencia es una expresión del estrés y la ansiedad de la propia persona que es celosa sobre cosas que puedan tener nada que ver con la relación. Para muchas personas, los celos tienen su raíz en el temor a ser abandonado o a la vulnerabilidad. Esto es verdad particularmente cuando hay un desequilibrio de poder, ya sea económico, social, sexual, emocional, en una relación. La persona que tiene menos poder puede usar la sospecha y los celos en un intento inconsciente de ganar igualdad. Como la ira, los celos no son nada mas que una señal de que algo esta mal el comprender de donde vienen los celos puede ayudarte a tratarlo cuando surge en tu relación. September 06 no enOtros...
Un nuevo negocio estaba abriendo y uno de los amigos de los dueños quisieron enviar flores para la ocasión. Ideas para motivarte a hacer ejercicio No dejes que los eventos sociales o escolares te hagan dejar de lado tus metas para tener un buen estado físico. September 05 chisteClasificación: Doctores Cosas que no quieres oír durante la cirugía |
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